Friday, December 20, 2013

Rest in Peace, my little sunshine

4 days ago .... 

when i got my latest final exam and rushed home because I really really want to play with chichi and my other dogs.
i was soaked wet because of rain, but i ran and went looking for her.
i called her repeatedly, "Chichi...Chichi..." as usual. i looking in every her hiding spot. 
behind the abandoned door, near the wash machine.... i look everywhere and i don't find her.


i asked my mom, where is her?
she said, "she's already dead" with inexplicable look on her face.



i shocked and got speechless. "dead? how?"
she was cheerful yesterday, i even could play with her the day before and cuddled her, and then she's going to get groomed.


my mom explained.....
in the morning Chichi already looked weird, she wasn't touched her food. she looks tired..
but my mom is too busy and she's off to my nephew's school.
later when she got home, in the afternoon....
Chichi already dead. looked she was thrown up many times before.



i'm speechless that time, i went upstairs to my room and crying hardly.
i cried for almost 5hours. many condolences messages coming for me, from my friends. 
my closest friends even shocked.
but nothing could cheered me up.


its already 4 days. and i'm still crying just because reminds of it.
my tears fell down as i writing this post.
i miss her so much. i want her back. i kept hearing her barks.


when i got home she looked so happy, she jumped and running around and barking.
and when i got home now i feel empty.
chichi would never ever welcome me back again.


i spent 6 years of my life with her.
its long enough to love someone deeply right?
i still remember when she got sick of parvo and doctor said she only have 40% chances to live, i cried and prayed all night long. and in the morning we got call from doctor she survived!
and we picked her, and she looks soo happyyy like nothing happened to her.
it was the happiest moment of my life.....


now she's gone. and no matter how hard i cried... no matter how hard i prayed....
she would never come back.

 







to you my twinkle star ...

thank you ...
for bringing the happiness and joy in every days...

thank you ...
for teaching me to become responsible ....

thank you ...
for your unconditionally love...

thank you ...
for your contagious cheerfulness

thank you ...
for always beside me even when i'm happy or sad

sorry ...
for not being the best person...the best friend...

sorry...
for not always beside you even in your last minute

sorry...
for everything i've done.... for every irresponsible actions i did...

sorry...
for being late to gave you food...


sorry....
for everything...

but you know.... i always always always loves you. i love you to the moon and back.
i love you more than anything.

you'll always be remembered...


Rest in Peace, my little sunshine