tranquil pleasures - a day before christmas

An artistic squiggle
A toddler’s giggle
It’s a warm glow inside

The sky at dawn
A baby being born
Its that feeling of deep joy

A sparkling waterfall
A crisp cuckoo’s call
It’s a lightness in your life.


Only beauty abounds
No discordant sounds
It’s a knowing you are free.

because of boring looooong holidaaaaaay
and we're sick enough to sleep and eat all day long like a pig,
with a good friend of mine,
we were planned to going out and took some pictures

these pictures was taken a day before christmas, in 24th 
I love the place we chose, a tranquil woods that I can even took a nap without any pillows

I enjoyed and appreciate every captures, 
because he captured with passion not only by skills.
even I'm not a good object, he made me looked good enough in these pictures 

a good pictures is the one that contain memories in it

and captured with heart.

Bittersweet

"you see, the thing is... we didn't chose love, love chose us" - Alice Bells

we never chose whom we fall in love, all the thing is just like...its all happened 

its never according to anyone plans.

i hate fall in love.

i hate when I started act stupid even I only heard his voice.

but then....

this is the thing I hate the most, when I should stop..


even my heart keeps yearning she can't stops.


I can't believe I finally taste the feeling like this.

its like something I only read from books or watch from the movies...

become real.


I'm only a human.

unexpectedly and of course undesirable... I fell for someone.

I'm only a human.

now I'm sad, I'm broken, I'm upset.

and I no longer able to hide.


Hurt is inevitable that sometimes I have to deal with.

and now I will.




I learned to accept the truth.


and I'm learning to feel the pain....

mid month, mid test

been really busy and stressful cause of mid test in the middle of this month

it just over last Thursday, and i was like ... 'oh God i need holiday'

yeah I got holiday. ONE day off. and weekend.

and i was use that three days off as well as possible. 

i cut my hair, which i really want to do it since 2 weeks ago but i just don't find the time

went shopping with my mom,

hang out with my family,

and.... lay in bed until mid day doing nothing

its been a really good days off




ohh,.... and I want to show something

its for my mid test's aplikom actually, i have to designed magazine cover. 

and I chose Christmas theme because Christmas is on the top 5 events I like, and I can't wait any longer for Christmas :)

I have just done this design on 9:30 PM then suddenly a message came up from my phone which is my college friend, told me that we have to use the magazine title's template from the lecturer which already been sent to facebook's group. 

what. 


the.

hell.

and actually i was doing this by Photoshop. 


the lecturer just told us to do that by InDesign and we have to collect the .indd file. not just the print out.

just right after i've done this.

another what the hell.

fortunately i made this in time. here it is 

i don't like the template so damn much

재미있는 일

we spent a day together


there were nothing special

we only want to talk and share stories from college

it was really fun, we had good laughs, good foods and coffees

thankyou for today,

i collect today as one of my happy memories

my duck face kkk

my smallest friend, Aimee
she looks like 15 even she's already 17 kkk

many people said we're look like the real couple XD

:)

Ronald and Aimee

my friend who's very brilliant in designing

looks cool...
but wait until you see the next photo

lmao.
my fav photo of today

our alay pose lol

What you Imagine, What It Will Be

pikachu's tail

onion 

so u know what i imagine when drawing these hahahaha

actually i thinking of bolt instead of pikachu's tail. but it look like it's!


well, nirmana means immateriality, still.
so its up to you to thinking what these drawing look like. 


hahaha

Anime Review : The World God Only Knows (Kami Nomi Zo Shiru Sekai)

i have wrote much about this, but i suddenly press the refresh button, seriously!

OMG i like this anime so much! very interesting and funny.

unfortunately the season 3 haven't release yet. I only downloaded 2 season. 



its about a guy who loves girls, his name is Katsuragi Keima.


unfortunately he's not into the real girls, he loves 2D girls (from games). he already have conquered around 10.000 girls from dating sims. no wonder, he always been found holding his PFP (look alike white PSP for me). he play games EVERYTIME. while studying in classroom, while swimming in P.E (sport class), while bathing, eating, etc. by that he proudly called himself as god of conquest. and he's famous in the world of gamers. many gamers ask him for advices. 


one day, he got mysterious mail from "Dokuro Skull" (Keima doesn't have hand phone, he received and sent mails by his PFP) asking Keima would he clear a girl for him. obviously, he accepted. 
once he replied "yes", the gigantic wind appears, blows him and a girl falling gently. 

she's a demon who came to earth for recapturing loose souls who escaped from hell. loose souls plant themselves in the emptiness heart of girls. that only could get out by replacing their emptiness heart with love. so this demon girl will need human to do this for her. 


Keima, wasn't realize at all he just did contract with this demon-girl. 
of course, at the first Keima as a hardcore gamer, refused to do that for the demon girl, he won't have enough time for playing he thought. but, she said, the hell's contract is very strict, once Keima decline or run away from the contract, the collar around his neck (which he got right after the demon appeared) will cut his head off. and if Keima dies, so does the demon girl.

her name is Elucia de Lut Ima, Elsie. 

she's my favorite character
I kind of addicted to the dubber of Elshi, she has VERY CUTE voice
especially when she said "...ano.... eto~" (umm... err...)
or when she call Keima "Kami nii-sama!" (divine brother)
and when she said "sobosha~" (firetruck, i dont know how to write the japanese haha)

by her cuteness, she doesn't look like demon at all, except all the skull things she had. she said her age is about 300 years old, but she looks like 17 and act like 5. she abnormally fonds by firetrucks -.-"


then, Keima and Elsie start looking for loose souls. the only way to get them out is make the girls who had emptiness in their heart falling in love with Keima, and kiss him. (how lucky this dweeb)

the funniest part of Elsie is when she tried hard to understand why Keima loves games so much. she asked Keima to taught her about games, and then go bought a first edition game "Love Tears" for Keima so that Keima could attend games fair. by what Keima taught, "the most expensive the better", Elsie just about to buy the right game price $15.00, but then she saw another game with same title, same cover price $30.00, she then buy the expensive one. but its an anime version of that game! LMAOOO... 


as you could see.... Keima is surrounded by cute girls, but he only loves 2D girls.... and his PFP. 


at first i thought he WON'T able to deal with the real girls. but seriously, I even melted by how he treat the girls. he looks like real cassanova even he only learnt all of it from the games!! 

EGOIST - Departures

my favorite song in Showtime. 

I don't know it has a very deep meaning TAT feels like going to cry by read the translation. 

mou anata kara aisareru koto mo
hitsuyou to sareru koto mo nai
soshite watashi ha kou shite hitoribocchi de

I’m no longer loved by you,
I’m no longer needed by you.
And thus, just like this…I’m alone…

ano toki anata ha nante itta no?
todokanai kotoba ha chuu wo mau
wakatteru noni kyou mo shiteshimau
kanawanu negai goto wo

What was it that you said back then?
Those words which didn’t reach me now dance in the heavens.
Although I know it very well, I continue
to make a wish that will never come true.

hanasanaide
gyutto te wo nigitteite
anata to futari tsudzuku to itte
tsunaida sono te ha atatakakute
yasashikatta

Don’t let go…
hold my hand tight…
say we’ll continue being together…
our held hands used to be so warm
and so tender.

anata ha itsumo sou yatte
watashi wo okorasete saigo ni nakasunda
dakedo ato ni natte
gomen ne tte iu
sono kao suki datta

You were always like that,
making me angry and in the end, making me cry.
But afterwards
you would apologize…
I loved your face while doing so.

hanasanaide
gyutto sou omoikkiri
anata no ude no naka ni itai
futari de odeko wo awasenagara
nemuru no

Don’t let go…
hold me with all your might…
I want to stay in your arms…
I want us to sleep with our foreheads
together.

mou nido to ha aenai tte koto wo shitteta no?

Did you know we would never see each other again?

hanasanaide
gyutto anata ga suki
mou ichido datte warattekurenai no
anata no nukumori ga kiechau mae ni
dakishimete

Don’t let go…
hold tightly, I love you…
You will not smile for me ever again…
so before your warmth disappears,
hold me in your arms.

cr : deciphered melody

"I want to stay in your arms…
I want us to sleep with our foreheads
together....."

seriously this song .... 

quite late post, my September Wish

1. PLANNING

to make 'to do list', sorting, rearranging, selecting important - unimportant things

also money planning, I NEED to stop buying things I don't need (I DON'T NEED THAT SS4 PHOTOBOOK, I DON'T NEED IT)






2. ON TIME

as a designer to be, I need to respect the time

I can't be late, but also did my works PERFECTLY.






3. COMPANIONABLE

I should become more friendly, also sociable








4. ACCEPTABLE

That things and that 'one' aren't for me. 

I wasn't realize what I have could be gone any time.


From now on I want to start treasure everything (and everyone) I had and treat them well

Lost something precious is really painful.

"what a wonderful world"

orange dragonfly

coffee, before it turns to beans

its like the flower change her wings color hahaha

somehow it looks like a fairy

beehive, try to find the queen! haha

the dearest of mine, mommy

that day... reminds me of an old song my dad used to like

"I see trees of green........ red roses too
I see 'em bloom..... for me and for you
And I think to myself.... what a wonderful world.

I see skies of blue..... clouds of white
Bright blessed days....dark sacred nights
And I think to myself .....what a wonderful world."

I captured beautiful things, feels the nature, kissed by the sun

and thought... "what a wonderful world"

wish me luck

I started college three days ago

A tiring days indeed, but I hope ill get used to this soon! (i lost a kilogram again haha)


Actually I really like my college, it located in the highland and the views are really nice, it has lots of trees so I feels like in the mild forest and even sometimes I have to walk upstairs to level 7, i really enjoy the views from there, its like going on vacation everyday ^^

I really want to take some pictures of it, but I don't like to bring my camera if I don't really need it.


Oh, I only enjoyed the views.




The lecturers are quite.... well... they're really different from high school's teachers.

I can't be late submitting my homeworks to them, or they won't take it. Even if I only late for 30 minutes.

What a rude world for designers.

And because I haven't got many homeworks to do, I guess I still enjoying it. I don't know what will I say if I got bundle of homeworks. haha..



Well, I hope my spirits will stay still until the end hahahaha

and i WILL graduate 4 years later! :) 

Happy Birthday, mijn liefde

생일 축하 당신을 내 특별 한

billions people sending birthday wishes to you, 

i won't put my hope too high you'll read this


but still, I want to celebrate your birthday by write this post

you are such a special blessings to me 

you made my days seems brighter and colorful


miles and miles and miles apart,

 although you're so far you’ve touched my heart.
 
your laugh, your voice, your adoring smile,


seem to shorten every mile

I can feel you so close to me

 Happy Birthday to the brightest star in my life!

may beauty and happiness surround you today and beyond ^^

P.S : actually ELF and clouds are trying to made #BirthdayInYesung and #SPYesungDay as

trending twitter, unfortunately they're reported as spam :( i like those hashtags, to be honest. :(

twinged memoir

what an accident today


taught me to not become this foolish anymore

I maybe forget someday, but I won't forgive forever

just rotten in hell.

irresistible desire

everything lost its colors once I knew you

I only could feel you 

your voice thrilling my soul

your smile paralyzing my nerves

its like...

i'm happy enough to loving you

... 

only you.

deepest inside me feels that i don't need any guy but you

you bewitched me indeed

how to break your spell?

New Addicting Stuff

just got a black Dell Streak 5" from mom, it using android program


and...
O...

M...

G...

i'm addicted to this thing

like i can't left a minute without it 


i like to play Smurf's Village and Pimple Popper! hahahaha 

and i like to open twitter from it, simpler and easier than blackberry

and... i'm addicted to Instagram >.<

and OMG ... its kakaotalk looks cuter and have lot adds on it!

it works better on android than blackberry

i even could add 'plus friend' like SMTOWN, Super Junior etc who gave me many news about K-Pop



college start soon and i should reduce this addiction ._. 

Anime : Fruits Basket

the best anime i ever seen! :)


it has GOOD story, GOOD moral value, GOOD characters

even its really an old anime, i don't really know when it released, but I know its an old anime

for the low quality videos I got

actually I just bought it for the long holiday 

at first it focused about a sweet (but a little bit stupid) 16 year old girl, named Tohru Honda

her mother just passed away on car accident, and she had to live alone 

actually she can lived with her grandfather, but he should built a new room first so Tohru can live there, and Tohru finally built a tent in a forest

later she finds out the land Tohru is staying on belongs to Sohma family, and Yuki Souma is the most popular guy in the school (i like him the most!)

and he offered Tohru to stay at his house, as a new housekeeper
Tohru agrees, because there was a landslide that broke her tent

by the accident, Tohru also found out that 13 members of Sohma family were cursed

they will turn to animals (13 chinese zodiacs : dog, cat, rat, tiger, cow, rabbit, dragon, snake,  horse, sheep, monkey, rooster, and boar) when hugged or embraced by opposite sex. 

actuallly the chinese zodiacs only had 12 animals, 
there's an ancient old story told cat was a part of chinese zodiacs
when the God invited all animals to the special banquet,
rat told cat that the banquet will held on the another day

the cat aslept and wasn't come to that banquet

that's why he isn't included as the chinese zodiacs

Tohru quickly getting close to this family, and they also treat Tohru dearly

Tohru struggle to keep their secrets, also protect them to not get caught by other people. But... there's one person who really hate her ... a person from Sohma Family...


okay then, you should watch it by yourself to find out who is him... and why he hate a very nice and sweet girl like Tohru :)

i learned from this, that I should be a strong person even i'm a girl

i should look on the bright side or positive side in everything, like what Tohru always did. despite the attitude everyone else's to her, she always show kindness.

the rat is Yuki Sohma and the cat is Kyo Sohma :)

hectic days

there's something called PTMB (Pembekalan Terpadu Mahasiswa Baru) in Indonesia, or you could say its something like the orientation for new collegers

seriously ...

its tiring, and i even lost 1 kilogram in 3 days! 


because I got many assignments to do, i should say at the beginning I thought all i've done are unimportant and such a waste of money

i should made a wayang outfit from 3mm duplex 


and made a creative 120 pages book (something like portfolio)


many papers to made, etc etc

the disciplinary committees are really scary, they yelled at us madly almost every time

no i'm not scared at all, i'm just annoyed of how they yelling at us, their juniors

its like they're living on the jungle, and its like we're all deaf people

but even I really hate them... I won't gave up and i done all the tasks perfectly 

to show them I am not an useless spoiled brat

that I can do something, and I deserve majored in Visual Communication Design.



in the end ... they're quite nice. they even could smile, shake our hands and encourage us.

and I knew... all the crazy assignments they gave to us are not just an empty meaningless tasks 

that we should prepared for much more tasks to do ahead, and as designers we should discipline in time

that's why they mad and gave us punishments if we haven't finished our works yet

or coming late

its all had the meanings, that they just want to taught and prepared us for a tougher battle once we enter the college




well, at least I got many things to learn

that I can't become an anti-social even i want to, I can't become this careless anymore to others


I should treat my new friends as a family of mine

that I should always do my works on time, even I can't get enough sleep

that my works worth as my soul




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